Today was a good day….no today was a bad day. But I think that’s okay. I feel like a put this unrealistic ideal on myself that I need to find a reason even the smallest of them to I guess make myself say I had a good day. But honestly I felt this small sense of relief when I said it out loud ‘I had a bad day’

I live in this constant state of paranoia, wondering if today is the day he decides to ‘get even’. Which also leaves me with the question of getting even for what? All I did was decide I didn’t want to live in a constant state of fear wondering what would set him off next and how bad it would be. For months I tried everything I could to be the ‘perfect girlfriend’ but nothing I did was right, and I thought leaving would magically make everything better but it just feels like a different type of prison. And I don’t even know how to get out of this one… how do I escape from something I’m not even sure is really coming for me?

I honestly don’t know where to start….I don’t even know what this is.. I usually just write in journals but it seems lately I just can’t. Can’t as in I don’t have the energy or want. I have things I need to say but I’m tired of just saying them to no one….I guess here at least I have the possibility of someone reading this. For the past year well almost two, I’ve been struggling with depression and PTSD. And for the majority of these almost two years I’ve been blaming this depression on the passing of the two most important people of my life, my brother and father, but that’s not the reason. (Although it does deeply hurt) I’m not even sure how it’s possible but I was in such deep denial about the real reason I’ve repressed the memories. But over these last couple of months memories randomly fluid my brain reminding me I can’t run forever. I was in an extremely abusive relationship and I’m scared I won’t be the person I was before them, and I’m honestly going to try to write about it here and hopefully that helps In some way. Im tired of feeling trapped.

what-even-is-thiss:

feenyxblue:

helloitsbees:

skellydun:

posting on a blackboard discussion board and replying to two of your fellow students has to be one of the nine circles of hell

Great point, Dylan! I especially agree with it being “one of the nine circles of hell”. Well said.

If I could offer a bit of criticism to your post Dylan, I would say that this phenomenon is not limited to blackboard, but also extends to other education websites, such as Canvas. Overall though, I agree with your point.

I agree with what other people have said above. I have noticed your reference to Dante’s Inferno. Very good use of earlier texts in the course.

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bogleech:

grungepoetica:

seeyouguyslater:

tahthetrickster:

manga-and-stuff:

hunter-rodrigez:

And I am not talking about the content on this website… I am talking about the website itself, like from a technical standpoint…

for example: the Create Post window looks like this:

but when you zoom in 200% with your browser it suddenly changes to this?

and this window doesn’t just look different, it is miles ahead of the other one in every single way, for example this his the build in text editor:

yeah, you can change color and font without doing any HTML bullshit… 

And the wildest thing… you’re not limited to one kind of post with this create post window… 

You want to create a hybrid post that has pictures, text, a video and music? you can just do that no problem…

WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU HIDE THIS BEHIND 200% ZOOM????

I didn’t know this so I am guessing quite a few of you probably don’t know about it either…

#looks kinda like a hybrid of mobile and of desktop

……………yknow i saw this and i thought to myself “i wonder if the devs here are so incompetent that they set up css @media breakpoints but only used single min-widths and max-widths instead of both min-widths and max-widths so that at certain viewports it gets confused and uses the css from multiple breakpoints” and yknow what

i think thats exactly what the fuck they did dfhjkdjk

MAN….GKDHFJDNGJDGEGFFGGFGGF

Okay I know I don’t normally reblog this kind of stuff, but I was fascinated by it, so I sent this post to my girlfriend (she knows way more about coding than I do) and messed around a bit on my own, and here’s what I learned:

1. in plain English, the “css breakpoint” stuff means that Tumblr’s mobile and desktop features are coded to work at specific zoom values, rather than working across a range of zooms, so if you zoom in far enough on desktop, it’ll activate the mobile features

2. on my laptop, the mobile features start showing up at 150% zoom

3. if I start writing a post at 125% and then zoom in to 150% - or if I start at 150% and then zoom out to 125% - the post gets completely erased (probably because it’s not meant to happen and the code breaks down)

4. it’s impossible to discard a post the normal way on 150% zoom (I had to refresh the whole page to get rid of my test draft. My best theory for why that happened is that the only method of closing the draft was with smartphone controls.)

5. zooming to 150% and then trying to reblog a post resets the desktop to its normal function, and it stays that way until I refresh the page

conclusion: Tumblr is a hellsite at every level

WHAT

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sixpenceee:

Hydraulics in Action

“The trapped air in the middle bottle presses the liquid into the bottle on the right. When the air is released the liquid levels out because the pressure in the middle bottle is released.”

Source

jtbarnett:

“We will live to see Spring.”

— J.T. Barnett